Precipice
These days I see more gloom than light
And in gloom I collect sarcastic awes and laughters
Seeing myself contained in a small closed box
Half- happy,half-demented, not a glimpse of the world outside
And in those times I also saw the conclusion of days
Mocking me like it’s an inch away
The thought, I must admit, was rather appealing
Nonetheless mysterious, intriguing
And as ridiculous as heaven itself
I do not fear the depth of my fall
But taking the plunge excites me
The ones I hold dear summon the wind to blow against my body
It’s no use –
I’m losing my balance
Tomorrow I shall wake up to the world that has deceived me
And spend countless more tomorrows pushing myself deliberately
Painlessly, eagerly
And quickly – for I am getting tired of this ray of light
3:44 pm
Bedroom Life
I glanced behind me and saw no one there
It brought a shade of sadness to my eyes
And my steps became a little slower than normal
Leaving behind a trail of apparent grief for no one to follow
I listened carefully but no one was uttering a word
It brought a deep sigh of despair to my lungs
And my huffing and puffing grew a little faster than normal
Closing my eyes, I dreamed of voices that don’t exist
I woke up smiling but nobody saw my face
It brought a quiet thought into my mind
And my smile became a little fainter than usual
I grabbed a mirror and saw my life in front of me
I knew then that I was alive
Even though nobody was there to prove it
And my heart grew a little bigger than usual
I stood up and looked forward to a same old lonely day.
4:15 pm
Day Off
I held out my hand far enough to feel the wind
Just in case I missed the chance
Trees are swinging by me so fast, unmindful
I can barely close my eyes
I felt a drop of water hit my palm
And I laughed right away
Coz I know everything will lose their colors tonight
But here I am on top of the hill
In a long overdue vacation from life
Where I can actually hear the birds sing
And compare the shapes of leaves
Where the next day is far from near
And where today and yesterday seem to be one
Where nobody needs to dream anymore
5:06
