Now what?

Sometimes you just stop in the middle of nowhere and realize you have nowhere to go. Maybe I’ll just escape from life. But even with that, I don’t know where to start.

At this very moment, my life is tip-toeing on a tight rope, hanging in the balance. I regularly see some signs that tell me how pathetic my attempts are becoming. Some people say that humans unconsciously like to be hurt so they can wallow in misery just like their favorite movie or telenovela characters. It’s a stupid notion, but considering that I let myself be hurt again and again even though I can avoid it, maybe it’s true. Maybe I DO want to get hurt unconsciously (apparently it’s not unconscious anymore).



It’s one of those days. It just comes suddenly, right between a sunny day and a tiring trip to nowhere. It just comes. Sometimes I wish I could put all my mental processes on hold. Like a factory. CANCEL ALL OPERATIONS.

But I can’t. There are things you have to deal with. And when I say “deal”, for me that means, “do nothing”, or “wait for a miracle”.

Hey, sometimes He slaps you in the face and tells you to get all your shit straight, and start living, for crying out loud! I’ll just wait for that day.